31 March 2015

Maaf Tuhan dia cuma bercanda.

Percakapan pas sang pacar main sama Sam barusan:

F: Mainnya sebentar aja ya, soalnya Om mau ke gereja.

Abis itu mereka ngobrol random things gue ga paid attention to it, eh tiba-tiba nama gue disebut:

F: Rambut Soy ie dimana-mana, sama kayak Tuhan Yesus.
C: .... *Ngeliatin sang pacar dengan ekspresi flat* Lu mengibaratkan Yesus kayak rambut gue yang rontok di lantai?
F: Eh ngga kan cuma bercanda... (mukanya langsung berubah kayak dia ga enak hati gara-gara salah ngomong lol)

Hahahaha oon.

28 March 2015

A perfect Saturday.

I've been feeling under the weather for about a week now :( and my body isn't getting any better :( Anyway spent today with bf from 6 am; we jogged at the park, had breakfast, lunch, and dinner together, he helped my niece doing her homework, we played Viwawa, watched Modern Family, he watched over me as I took my afternoon nap, he stayed right by my side, unaffected and didn't seem to care about my annoying continuous sneezes and nose-blows. He wanted to go out at first, but he understood my condition and stayed with me at home all day long. It was a perfect 14 hours date. :')

Ha, moron.

Ha, super asshole moron.

No point of building anything nice in this country cause people
will vandalize it anyway. Super duper assshole moron 2.0.


Beinggg lucky xD haha (my level is 33 while his is 96). Oh I used to loveee this game so much.

Thanks for today F <3

26 March 2015

The little beast.

Semenjak pulang dari Malaysia (entah karena kecapean atau karena kondisi udara Jakarta yang super dedemit atau maybe karena both) gue langsung bersin-bersin kaga karuan dan berujung pilek. Currently gue lagi sakit tenggorokan, sedikit batuk, dan pilek. Oh well. Terus dikala tepar di kamar masih bisa aja ada little beast macam ini yang ngegangguin:

Begitulah Sammy di umurnya yang ke-5 ini: liar dan sedikit out of control.

Anyway rasanya setiap kali abis pulang trip gue pastiiii jatuh sakit. Mungkin kecapean kali ya. Tapi masih mending sih paling ngga pas tripnya sendiri gue kaga sakit (paling betis, pinggang and telapak kaki kayak mau meledhak). Anyway sekedar selingan, memang akhir tahun 2014 kemarin gue bilang pada diri sendiri, "Let's travel more next year" taphiii honestly kaga gini juga sichhh caranyaaaaaaaa:

Maret kemarin 5 hari ke Malaysia. July nanti probably akan 8 hari ke China (masih plan). Bulan October akan 9 hari ke Korea (FUCKINGYAAAAYYYYY). Terus barusan dikabarin sodara ada 1 slot kosong untuk tour ke Turki bulan April (karena sodara yang lain cancel dan ga ada yang bisa ngisi slot kosong itu, jadi yang bersangkutan nanya apa gue bisa). WEW. Tapi yang Turki si ga mungken-ken-ken gue ambil karena satu dan lain hal.

*Ngintip domfet, nangis dipojok kamar* But I'm so so excited! Emang kayaknya kalo ngomong doang kaga bakal kesampean apa-apa. Harusnya udah dari beberapa tahun lalu gue start traveling jauh-jauh every year instead of planning it only. I mean, kapan lagi kalau bukan sekarang?

Khay brb istirahat sembari catch-up Grey's Anatomy yang jalan ceritanya makin bikin gue benci si Shonda Rhimes. Ke dubay.

23 March 2015

A closure.

The last night we stayed in KL, me and my friends had a really serious conversation about something that I've been thinking about for years. It was emotional (at least for me) and I had a really hard time holding back tears (but I did! :D) After all what's a fun trip without dramas, right? ;p

Throughout the years of my relationship with bf, I've heard a lot of comments / judgement from my relatives / family members / friends / close friends / even strangers about how I was always sort of the 'bad guy' in this relationship while bf was the 'good guy / understanding side / and etc'. Blah blah blah, I have gotten used to those kind of comments I'd usually be like "Yea whatever, of course it takes only one person's effort, kindness and endurance to make a relationship works; just like you need only one hand to clap."

But of course the case wouldn't always be the same if my closest relatives / friends were the ones who make that kind of judgement. Like a normal human being, I'd feel wronged. No matter how ugly I am from the outside, I would expect at least them to not judge me before knowing my story.

Long story short that night I expressed my concern to my friends about them tending to side with bf (or in other way: judge me as the more guilty one) without even knowing the whole story in the first place. The conversation was so long (and kinda scattered) I couldn't really recall what's everyone was saying. But some of my friends kinda assured me that that wasn't the case and some said that if it did happen, it would be because of myself; it would be because the way I talk / express / portray myself; to which I completely understand (cause after all I have always been the angry-outspoken-direct-nagging-one in this relationship). But again allow me to repeat myself, that no matter how ugly I am from the outside, I would expect at least them to not judge me before knowing my story. Or even better having them think, "she must have had her reasons to react like that."

I've been constantly fearing.. fearing that my own group of friends (whom of course are also friends with my bf) will judge me behind my back, for being the wrong one almost every time in every case. Well, me and (especially) bf rarely talk about our problems to anyone, so really, people can mostly guess and assume. And when they do, I know they'll mostly see me as the grumpy and constantly nagging selfish girlfriend. I was insecure of being misjudged by the people I care the most.

That night I told my friends, that the only thing that is able to come between me and bf and divide us into two very competitive persons, is them. In front of them we would unconsciously fight for their supports; talk in aggressive and defensive manner; use direct and subtle form of argument, that eventually aim to prove that one of us is a better person in this relationship.

That night, I realized that I want to have them both. I want to have my boyfriend, and I want to have my group of friends exclusively for myself; which was selfish and impossible.. knowing that my bf shares the same friends with me. I think I just wanna be like those mainstream girlfriends who chat, gossip and talk about their boyfriends; compare their flaws and share fighting stories; ask for each other's opinions about certain things; and of course, support and tell each other things like, "Yea I totally understand how you feel."

Bf told me that sometimes it bothered him as well hearing other people judge him for being 'weaker' than me, but it shouldn't concern us too much because we know our relationship better. I truly wish I could be more like him.

That night, I finally 100% understand that no matter how hard I try to explain myself, I would still be unable to prevent anyone - including my closest friends - from judging or taking side in my relationship with bf. The only thing I can do is to let everything be the way it is and let go. And I get that I wouldn't have the kind of mainstream girlfriends relationship I mentioned earlier with my longest and closest group of friends; not now, not ever. But maybe, maybe it isn't entirely bad as well.

I am glad I spoke out about this and I feel like a big heavy burden has been taken away from my shoulder. Hopefully.. I could start somewhere new from here, moving on from the thought of constantly fearing and feeling unfair of being misjudged.

The next morning me and bf talked about this all day long.. and he said to me a lot of wise things. I remembered them all, but this one stayed longer in my head, and it will forever stay in my heart.

And he was right.

Whatever happens
I have you
and you have me
and that's the only thing that matters

21 March 2015

Malaysia, 16-20 March 2015.

Personally I think this was the most productive / unique / tiring trip we've ever had so far as every second in Malaysia sorta spent well. The trip begun with - of course - a mandatory group photo at the airport :]

Day 1 - KLCC, Batu Caves, Bukit Melawati, Kuala Selangor.

Chicken hot pot something, yummss~

Being all touristy.

Gotta say I hated those stairs. Plus there're probably 10+ monkeys hanging out on / around that stairs,
and some of them sometimes tried to take our snacks / drinks. Ha, scary.

Seafood dinner by the lake.

These are fireflies! It was really dark that time and camera flash was prohibited.

Day 2 - Melaka.

Group photos. Amazingggg place. We stayed at 2 different apartments in KL. This one has really
good and modern furnitures, and this one has the best and most amazing host ever (thanks Heyam!)

Started the day with a classic Malaysian breakfast: nasi lemak :3

Melaka's cendol. I'd say I like the Indonesian version more :)

An amazing and beautiful mosque by the sea.

Day 3 - Cameron Highland, Brinchang Market.

Did a super, super, super tiring jungle trekking. We walk for a total of 3 hours (with 1 hour 45 mins of it spent in the middle of a jungle). We chose to follow trail 9A which was a super narrow / slippery / dangerous / unfriendly path for amateurs like us. I was later told that trail 4 was much friendlier for tourists. Nevertheless, it was an amazing journey / experience for us, and it made us work together as a team by taking care of each other. I was really proud of us :]

Finally after a tiring and worrying 1 hour and 45 mins... we managed to get out of the woods.
Ps: yes I hiked with that skirt, badass enough?

Indian food served on a banana leaf. It tasted delicious as well!

Bought that cute Elsa bag for Sam for only RM 10! I bought her another Hello Kitty pouch for RM 5.

Day 4 - Cameron Highland.

With the most dangerous predator in this mountain :p

Breathtaking views.


Look at those cuties!! Bf bought 2 back to Jakarta for me and him :]

Day 5 - KL.

Spent half of the day shopping (with bf only) in my favorite mall Sunway Pyramid. Ahhhh <3 it made me remember those good old times. All the memories from my uni years came back rushing to my brain. Found H&M mid season sale where a lot of items were sold from RM 10-40. GOD BLESS MALAYSIA. I bought three items from H&M and Esprit with amazing discounts and one blazer for bf :3 (and still regretting until today of why I didn't buy more.)

Tasting Shin Kee beef noodle near Pudu Central Station. It's different from what I had in mind,
but it's tasty and the beef was so gooooood.

Cutie pie eating Subway.

Tom Yam fried rice!! <3

Spent RM 43 for this Ippudo babe (price almost the same with the one in Indonesia).

KL in its busy time. Still nothing compared to Jakarta.

Left KL with a big painful bruise on my left hand (not sure where & when I got it).

Honestly when I first organized this trip, I wasn't excited at all. I thought I'd prefer to spend my money to go somewhere else new rather than Malaysia (again and again, like duh.) But boy I glad I went on this trip. It reminded me a lot of things and God, I realized I miss this country complete with its asshole taxi drivers.

Oh KL, I wish Jakarta is much more like you. Thank you for the hospitality, and I'll see ya again one day :]

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